There are several things going on in this world today that are news worthy and several things that are important enough to deserve to be blogged about but for some reason those escape me today. It seems like I have several great ideas while I am driving down the road or after I have gone to bed at night and I think I will remember what I thought was so important later, but I don't. So here I am sitting in my favorite spot on the couch trying to put my thoughts in order so they make sense to those of you not able to speak "kittish".
So due to all the drama and craziness that has come through my doors this last year I spent the day truly thinking about what I have or have not accomplished in my life. Part of this I think is brought on by the fact that this year I will celebrate my 28th birthday for the 12th time ~ you can do the math but seriously age is but a number and the last time Terry and I went out I seriously had to get out my ID to prove that I was indeed 39. I guess that should make me happy and to be honest I am a little amused but really I am just bored. I am bored with several things in my life and I think I may be hitting a midlife crisis, I haven't really ever heard stories of women having a mid life crisis but I think I may be smack dab in the middle of one. So I ask myself ~ why? It is not like this year has been stressful at all, I mean between Terry's stroke and just trying to keep ahead of the six kids still at home I often wonder to myself if I am in reality or is it just a drawn out bad dream, I wouldn't call it a nightmare as I haven't yet left the house naked, just saying.
However, there are also times in life where I ponder the bigger questions that have always eluded me like just how much wood would a wood chuck chuck if a wood chuck could chuck wood? Also just who really did let the dogs out? And where do all the socks go that don't come out of the dyer? And why do the kids think they can pull one over on me? Seriously the list goes on and on and on and on ......................... but you get the point.
Then there are times I wonder if I am doing enough, enough for my kids, my husband, my family. Am I showing them enough love, teaching them what they need to know when they leave my nest? Am I setting an example for them to follow or are my actions and words confusing them? Will they look back on their life with me and smile or will they run the first chance they get?
I guess and the end of the day it is what it is, a crap shoot and with that I will end my rambling for the day.
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